Former Commonwealth of Zion Assembly member, Ese Walter who first accused the Senior Pastor Biodun Fatoyinbo of sexual abuse in 2013 returned to the church on a Sunday.
Miss Walter however, claimed that she attended the Church Service on Sunday for two reasons but not to join the fold which she left six years ago.
She also said she had to dress up in a disguise so as not to be recognized by the church members.
She took to her Facebook page to drop a long message to her friends.
Below is the message:
“I attended service at COZA.
Disguised of course (Spy my wig and shades.) I even sat close to the stage and observed the entertainment up close.
Why did I go to COZA?
The first one was to gauge how far I had come in my healing.
It was the last Sunday before I left for India. I was going to share the photos then but a lot was going on with COZA leader that I didn’t want to throw myself in the middle of all that.
I knew India was going to mark a huge transformation for me and I thought about the one thing I didn’t know how I felt about and how I might conquer it.
COZA came to mind.
For years I had convinced myself that I was at war with COZA and as my healing progressed I realized that the story didn’t hold water so I came up with a plan to go attend service there and see what comes up for me. A friend agreed to follow me in case things didn’t go as I planned
I was pretty amused with the whole being there and sitting in the big ass auditorium looking how far it had grown since its Metro plaza and Dome days. I didn’t recognize one face in the choir through a few protocol members looked familiar.
I also found that I wasn’t angry, hurt or any of the other feelings I had dragged on myself for years. I was very entertained too. It made sense why I was drawn to the church back in the day. I have to admit the founder knew what his focus was when he opened “shop” in Abuja. Sitting there made me realize I had moved past many of the things I thought I hadn’t moved past. It made sense why I wasn’t interested in investing my energy in the recent dragging of its owner. Like I said in story 1, this Ese hardly recognizes the Ese of 2013.
The second reason I went was when COZA was still at Metro plaza, I contributed my one-year NYSC allowed to the church-building project. I invested in that building. Do you know what it means to give all your allowed as a corper? It didn’t make sense that I had not seen the building I contributed my 12 months allowed to. Spiritually, I own some part of the building and it made sense to experience it at least once.
Just as the message was ending, I left with my friend and he took these photos of me outside. That was sometime in August and I am glad I didn’t share the photos then.
When I left for India after this experiment, I knew I was going there free from any beef or bad belle for any human or institution. Truth is, the beef must have ended a long time ago but I didn’t realize this because I was following a narrative that Ese hated COZA, or pastors or even Christians. I don’t hate anybody. Hate is too much energy and I’d be damned if I allow anybody or anything determines how I show up in the world and who I beef. It will pain me to beef anyone or anything because that will mean giving my power away. If there is something I have learned about mind control, it is, you decide how you RESPOND to EVERY situation.
If there is anything I have to say to the owner of coza and even coza in general, it is THANK YOU.
If I didn’t lose my faith, I wouldn’t have had the opportunity to explore life on the level I am exploring it now. My biggest freedom has been the freedom from religion and its shackles. Boobbabies are lucky they won’t have to go through that programming.
What going to COZA proved to me is, we can choose how we want to show up in the world, we can choose what we let limit us and how we use our painful experiences to empower ourselves.
I left India a deeper person than the one that went there. I looked at my former wounds in the face and thanked them for showing up. So when I say I can lead you through your pain and to your healing, I am speaking experientially not because of something I learned in a book.
I am powerful beyond measure.
When I think of myself these days, I see myself on the level of the character Jesus, Buddha and some mystics of India. I am no simpleton and maybe this is why my “troubles” have been life-altering.
I am going to do what I said I will do.
In this NIGERIA, ” she ended.
Recall that Ese Walter isn’t the only former member of COZA to accuse Senior Pastor Fatoyinbo of sexual abuse. In August, Busola Dakolo, the Wife of popular Nigerian Musician Timi Dakolo accused Fatoyinbo of raping her as a teenager.
Since the allegation, Fatoyinbo has been invited by the police but is yet to be arrested or face trial.